To some place?

come here, look through me

do u see a heart?

do u see a soul?

or a decaying body?

m alive, can you hear me?

m divine, do u know me?

talk to me, you'll know all

m your gift, take me

if u don't like me, throw me

don't throw me

feed me, I've starved enough

touch me, I've been numb all this while

lets walk.. m no more lame

m your gift, take me

give me a name, I've never had one..

hurt me, cuz I've never cried

smile at me, I'll smile back, I've never smiled

come here, i am alive

can you hear me??

Re-union

staying in the rugs of last remains
the pain is more comforting than moving on
the sun pierces through blinded eyes
it would be better if its dark soon
the shadows of the ghosts of memories
play an unnerving game
they slither through my entire being
and claim their victory.
i don't want to be subjected to them
yet i am too laid back to even fight
"you won't be able to fight me"
the words echo in my mind
i cry till my eyes bleed blood
this reflection in crimson puddles ain't mine
yet it seems so like what i have become
i've got weathered wings to fly
in the thrashing winds of time
the time would come
when i'll be undone
the final peace of all eternities
and in the place beyond the ceasing times
you and i would be one again....

Not the last time

ain't new, this hurt
the sore you gave
another bruise upon
a perfectly made-up lie
and this won't be the last time.
it hadn't been the first one either!

shall i shed the tears
or should i save them to playact?
it's been long since
i've cried on something genuine
and that's why i can cry on you!
it won't be the last time i'll cry
coz it won't be the first one!

i don't feel the pain
no agony over an unfelt loss
you haven't gone, i know!
you'll come back
when i'll be trying to smile!
it won't be the last goodbye, i know.
coz, precisely, it isn't the first one either!

Last Kiss

i need madness when
it comes to you...
all the distractions
and the hullabaloo
so that whatever i say
is consumed by what's around.
you're the one thing that thrills
and thrill is all that kills.

flowers for a funeral,
silent as a graveyard.
sealed like the coffin.
this Black so myriad!
nothing remains.
it has all died.
one wash-off in the rains
gagged and suffocating tight.

that one last kiss
has remained undone!
what remains of it now?
its a big unintended pun!
puffed up like a nightingale
for the last of the songs.
this breath may escape
soon as i end the bong...

long way back home
nothing feels amiss
yet all feels lifeless
in the last of this kiss...

HiddEn............

have you ever stayed up through a night...
not because you weren't sleepy,
but because sleep deserted you
at the thought that "something" is there??

do you flick the bed-side lamp hastily
to be sure that the figure you saw in the dark
was just your imagination?

sometimes are you so scared
to look at the ceiling?
maybe you'd find something hanging there
on its four slimy limbs...
staring at you....

do the winds blow past you
and carry the shrieks of "someone"?

or sometimes do the hair at the back of your neck
rise, as if telling you...there IS someone!?!

ever thought if those barking dogs in the night
are fighting with each other, or
barking at "something" you can't see?

when you feel thirsty at night
and you open the kitchen door,
are you sure that it would be empty?
are you sure that a little hiss
won't make you turn around
and face something rather ugly??

are the empty places actually empty?

are you positive that there's nothing
lurking behind that car besides you?

sure that nobody sits by your bedside
and watches you sleep
while you can't know if it's there?

are those voices from somewhere
audible to all?
something is really not
tittering under your bed?

sure your feet
won't be clasped tight
by a cold lifeless hand while you sleep?

sure that something is not banging
on the front door?
what happens when you shut your eyes?
positive that your nightmare
won't come true when you open them?

that big tree by the roadside:
is it hiding something?
nothing would come down from it
and grab you hard?

listen... feel... see...
is it all normal in the night?

you don't feel the need to turn around
every time you walk on a lonely street?

is someone really not watching you?
are you really alone when you Think that you're alone?
would your sweat not trickle if its true?
Think....
what if its REALLY true???

good NYMPH gone BAD~!~

you're down today...
baby, you seem broken.
has mama's girl
just now woken?
oh! that boyfriend of yours...
he ditched you... didn't he?
you don't know exactly?
oh, dear!! ask me!!!

life suddenly becomes hell.
like you're on a parole!
it seems that mama's Ideal Daughter
just didn't have self-control!!
oh, yes, we know all
about what happened in Nainital...
where the kid made the nympho
dance to his "sur-taal"!!
and no, he wasn't different at all
just another outlaw, you see!
oh, but how could you know?
shall I sympathise when that kid ate off the wannabe!?

you're sick to stomach
and I laugh...wicked!?
baby, I still remember your doodle eyes
they always called me crooked!
"Don't roam with boys too much"
I remember how u always were wise!
but now to think of it...
who did actually need the advice!?

open vaults get dandy
when closed.
it was never the rosy picture
you always presupposed!!

why am I telling you this?
because you're a prick in my eye!
you always lectured on morals...
but you just got crumpled beneath the vengeful sky!
was daddy's girl
ever sane?
tuck in her mama's armpit,
wasn't she doomed to wane?!

(poor kid...hahahahahaha!!!)

Coming Straight!!

like a mortury of vampires
found in a dead man's haven,
I tried to dispose you
like the hair a baldy recently had shaven!
looks like a link came up
from the extremes of nowhere.
you screamed,
"Lie to yourself because i am now-here"

stringent lives cared for
and forgotten...
like a dead brain
smelling rotten.
like a heaving bosom
still like mosquito bites,
your lies crashed like
small cripped bytes...

am I still to belive
whatever came off that nymph head?
you seem to have literally taken me
as a walking dead!!
superimposed flux
flying in too deep.
you had me going nuts
like a wayward creep!!

games are good to play
but not with the heart
hell knows whatever you were upto
with that useless tart!!
baby, even zombies
come out of their gruesome hoods
the difference for me
were your virtual woods.

but now in open,
it just feels right!
you seem more like a
disposed remain of a bad night!!
what are you now?
darling, ask me not.
for, I thought of you
only until you seemed hot!!

opening visions
scare me much
but I've gotten used to
decomposing hunch!
oh! just in case I didn't tell,
your luggage has been thrown.
seems like the yesterday kid
has just now grown!!

okkay bye!!
you were yet another!!
on the list of what??
Good question!!
but, don't bother!!