pseudo

walking tirelessly on the grown weeds of past memories
the moonlight shines through these vast, hurting Prairies
sharp, blade-like edges of these cruel plants hurt me
over and over... still not over with these aspects of me
bluddy daddies of my shame mock at my disdain
sometimes, i think, to live is akin to be in pain!
y things go downhill or words go sour!?!
someone's "beautiful sacrifice" is all my words and more!!
i think i shall better check into a rehab for once
coz afterall i can't go through life with a smirk and a wince!
no morals left in me, no grounds to stand firm on
i lost them all and found refuge in blunders, bang-on!
did i ever find solace and contentment? who knows!?!
maybe i was open to people when i was away from my own echoes!
one tormented wench...what a pity it should be!
yet i cannot even pity myself for what has become of me!
useless quarrels over frail emotions said and felt
someone shall tie me on an electric chair with a belt!
uneccessary cringing inside, yet melancholy i don't feel!
i put salt over some wounds i gave time to heal!
lost words errupting from immaterial agony inside...
abandoned on pathways of disgrace with matters i cannot decide.
clinging to unstable thoughts, i'm just another depressing bitch!
insulting, abusive, brutal to myself, its me whom i ditch!
hell knows what i do in vain, sanity doesn't like me anymore!!
masochistically inhuman, i'm turning into a pseudo goth for sure!!