sleep

i wish i could wink a sleep

this night just makes me a creep!

no dreams await me for their embrace..

and i lapse deeper into my disgrace!!

remenants of the day haunt me within

tomorrow's ghosts prickle my skin!!

over my head the innumerable stars,

mocking, it seems, all descendents of Czars!!

the creatures of night seem to be friends

scrapping decayed remains to meet heir ends.

angels no more bestow me with their mercy

weren't they taught compassion in their nursery!?!

that Big Game Master sitting up above,

making all moves to devoid me of love!

piling over me reasons to be guilty in heaps..

now, under this turmoil, which sane mind sleeps!?!

oh! "sane" did i just say!?!

when did sanity touch me anyway!?!

and i left my mind behind a long leap...

still, why the hell can't i sleep??

is it bcoz this night is one great seductress??

soothing my pains, my agony, my distress!!

romancing with me, though in vengeance...

and i die in full sunlight in repentance!!

strange why those dreams are gory?

what they are, is another story!!

visions beyond everything i can decipher

troubling me like a crypted cipher!!

it pains me to even close my eyes and take a nap

closing my eyelids is their license to snap!!

it kinda hurts to see the depth of my own perverse thinking revive

whenever i shut my eyes to dream...its better to be sleep deprived!!

there are fantasies and visions i see with open eyes

u might call it building castles in superior skies!

but they are all to me...welcome to my Cinderella Land!

u might call me a Dreamer...obsessed narcissist of illusionary stands!!

but that's me...yea, its kind of stupid though!

coz dreamers generally don't go with the flow...

happy with my pens, papers, fags n beers in heaps...

scribbling wastes that are something to me!!

hating myself for how jilted i've become...

still loving myself for acting like a scum!

people call that attitude, so attitude let it be!!

what am i really?

i'll try to find that in my dreams when i'd sleep!!!